Growing Pains

Show me that smile again. Don't waste another minute on your cryin. We're nowhere near the end. The best is ready to begin.......Oh yea, As long as we got each other. We got the world spinning right in our hands. Baby, rain or shine, all the time. We got each other sharin the laughter and loooooooove.


I am experiencing what I would like to call adult "growing pains." No, I am not physically growing! God forbid I get any more freakishly tall than I already am. I think I am being stretched emotionally, mentally, spiritually, professionally, and however other way you can possible be stretched, and it is overwhelmingly uncomfortable. Unlike the song, I'm not "sharin the laughter and love" right now. Change gets harder and harder for me the older I get.


Why can't everything stay the same forever and ever? Each morning I wake up with this nagging feeling I can't pinpoint. Maybe it's my quickly approaching birthday. The last year of my twenties is here and it has been painfully hard to swallow. I realize that sounds young, but I can't wrap my head around it. I am so grateful for where I am at today, but the last few years have been tidal wave after tidal wave of emotions and change and life has flown by. I want to stop the clock, travel back in time, live ground hog day over and over again. Anything to keep the days from moving forward.


I was pushing my sleeping little boy in a stroller the other day and I realized that was probably going to be one of the last times I pushed one of my children in that stroller. I know it's ok to move forward, growth is good, change happens. I just wish it all happened a little slower. My mom says the thirties were the best years of her life. I'm really hoping she's right cause the twenties came and went in a moment.


Crap, I knew I should have started that whole scrapbooking thing when everyone else did.